mood: 
determined
music: TV: Saturday Night Live (Hans & Franz)
I've become quite the curmudgeon.
What scares me is how everything I'm reading about my impending fatherhood tells me how much behavior is learned through mimicry. I really don't want to be startled one day a few years down the road by how whiny and critical my child has become.
So when do I start being the person I want to be? Today wasn't a bad start. I was able to drive to the train station this morning and let people pass me at a rate of speed far too great for the road I was on, and all I said was "Wow, I hope she doesn't kill anyone." No expletives, no irrational desire to speed up and cut that person off and leap out of my car to give her a lesson in safe driving practices. I had a fairly crappy day at work, and I was still able to leave at 4:30 with a smile on my face. I stopped by the store to pick up some cat food and litter (input and output!) and I bought my wife a stuffed snowman- just because. Today was actually a good day.
"Live and let live" is a fairly common cliche, but I hope I can live that phrase. I've become far too judgmental. This is a big world, with vast diversity. Why would I think that I know what's best for everyone? I would much rather be the fellow with the bemused grin than the guy seething with frustration at every little thing.
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