Salvaged from LiveJournal: May 1st, 2002

mood:  pensive

music: Jewel

A glimmer of hope on the job front

This morning I got a call from the HR department of one of the places where I applied for a job. Even though I felt there were a few places where I stumbled conversationally (I had just woken up about 10 minutes earlier) I think it went well. She said she's going to pass my file over to the web development area, and if they're interested they'll call later in the week or next week.

The job is in Des Moines Iowa, which moves me 4 hours away from my closest family, but people survive not being in the same city as their families, right? And my parents will be in Utah for at least a few more years, so they wouldn't see that much of us anyway.

Looking into Des Moines, it could be a nice place to live. Big enough to have places to go but not Chicago-sized. Reasonably priced housing and cost of living.

I just dread the process of putting my house on the market, finding a house in Iowa, and acquiring financing. This being a real buyer's market (I count at least 6 houses right in my neighborhood for sale), I'm not optimistic about a quick and profitable sale of this house. And then there's the fun of packing up everything I own and schlepping it halfway across Iowa.

Can we please just fast-forward to six months from now when we're all settled in our new home and completely done with this one? But I guess I'm getting ahead of myself. Gotta get the job first.

Salvaged from LiveJournal: April 19th, 2002

mood:  anxious

Will code for food.

I am sooOOoo sick of looking for a job. It's now been two months since I was laid off, and one month since I've been able to really look for a job. Nothing.

I really detest moving and all that entails, and I'm comfortable in my house anyway. However, I've recently become really discouraged with the job market in the Chicago area. There is such a glut of programmers that every possible job has 20 more people who fit the job description perfectly. So I opened up my search to pretty much the entire country, and I still come up empty. There are only a few areas I'm avoiding, like the extreme South (can't stand the heat) and New York City (can't stand practically everything about it).

I keep going back and forth between I really really don't want to have to move and it won't be so bad; it might be interesting to move to a whole different state since I've been in Illinois since 2nd grade. Right now, that's kind of moot, since I can't seem to catch a break and get an interview.

Salvaged from LiveJournal: February 21st, 2002

mood:  optimistic

Job searching. How I hate it. Blargh.

On the bright side, I decided to let my comic officially lapse into oblivion. There are just too many things I want to do, and I have no idea how much time I'll have once the youngest Michaels puts in an appearance and/or I find a new job.

So of course I have to get inspired and figure out something I can do that will make my comic fun to write again. I have no idea if the Era of Webcomics is over and no one will come back to my strip, but I'm going to try drawing for a while again. Heck, my decisions to stick to a set schedule never seemed to take- why should my decision to quit? But I'm only going to keep it going as long as it's fun. And if it falls behind again, it falls behind. It's really just another creative outlet, so I suppose I don't really mind if no one is reading it.

Salvaged from LiveJournal: February 10th, 2002

mood:  depressed

music: Sarah McLachlan - Surfacing

Why is it that even though I know I don't want to be defined by my job that losing it is such a devastating blow? And also that I really hated it for the last couple of months but I would've much rather been one of the "unfortunate ones" that didn't get the the severance package and they have to show up for work? At least they have jobs in this sucky, sucky job market.

The days of The Man Of The House are gone, but simple economics made me the main provider for my family. My degree got me a higher salary, and my wife will be leaving teaching for a little while (maybe longer?) to give birth to/take care of my not-here-yet son or daughter. So I wish I still had a job I hate rather than be forced to look for a job now. God, I hate looking for work. I hate putting myself up for judgement by another person who may or may not see my potential. I feel like any job I apply for, if I got it I would justify the decision to hire me within 2 months. But it's getting over that initial obstacle that's the real bitch. In all of my on-campus interviewing in 1999, I got 2--count them: two--2nd interviews. Exactly one of them lead to a job offer. It seemed like a good job at the time, but things changed so much. And now I've been laid off from that job anyway.

My managers told me it's not personal, but screw them. I know that the company buying them out handed down a mandate to get all Information Technology out of Chicago and back to NY, but screw them. Short of my wife leaving me, laying me off is one of the most intensely personal things that can happen to me at this point. You're telling me that my skills and knowledge are simply not worth the amount of money you've been giving me. Ever hear of telecommuting? I busted my ass for this company, and I got the boot. Well, screw them.

For anyone overly concerned: don't be. I'll be ok. If I can find some job by May, the layoff package will keep us in food and diapers until then. And I'm not as emotionally unstable as this post may seem. I just needed to vent, and punching the kitchen wall didn't seem to help much. I just felt stupid, and now I have a hole to patch up.

Salvaged from LiveJournal: January 11th, 2002

mood:  lethargic

music: The Celtic channel on Spinner.com

Needed: one weekend.

So it's Friday morning. Boss probably wants me to come into work tomorrow, but that won't be happening. There's a strong rumor that more layoffs are coming on Monday, so I'll be damned if'n I'm working the weekend before getting the boot!

Office Space is becoming less of a comedy and more of a documentary.

Late last night I finally finished painting the nursery. I think it turned out pretty good, with a few reservations. I'll post photos later for those who are interested. Then I vacuumed and steam-cleaned the carpet so we (I) can move all the new furniture (that I've been tripping over in the hallway for the past month) back in. Steam-cleaning carpets at 1:30 AM? It's amazing how liberating it is to not give a damn how awake/productive one is for work the next day.

I'm looking forward to drawing a lot this weekend- I really miss it. I also want to update some on-line photo pages. I've spent my lunch hours this week catching up on strips I haven't seen since November. I missed reading comics, too.

My new snow thrower still sits unused in my garage-- it's even got some tags still on it! There can be no more effective snow repellent than spending $800 on a machine to save one's back from last year's excruciating pain. I guess in that respect, it has worked-- just not in the way I thought it would.